Every Story should have a Happy Ending!

Its a usual boring Saturday afternoon

Hot sun heating up outside the window

Birds tweets breaking the silence

I would have munched my lunch and watched a movie by this time of noon

Now, I lie here numb to all my surroundings

Eyes fixed at the ceiling, where droplets of sorrow find their way by the sides of the eyes

Loudest of my cry is heard as a slightest whispers

Fingers are decorating the floors with polka dots of my tear drops

Stirring these feelings, tears my heart insanely apart

Beauty lies everywhere, I have no eyes to see

Even with so many people around, I feel so alone

So many days, so many nights past, I keep going

I wedge myself between my family, still sleep evades

I make a mountain effort to place one step ahead

I keep going, doing my part

I laugh, smile, have a small talk, making efforts to change

Still deep down the pain is so raw, hurting and breaking me every now and then

It drags me into a bottomless hole, that gets darker and scarier and lonelier every ticking second

Sometimes life gets so unbearably painful

Sometimes its so intense that my heart will explode

Sometimes its so intense that I want to get to another world

Sometimes its so intense that I lie down unable to move

I want to be happy but I keep crying

I want to go out and achieve, but I sit here with wide eyes staring at nothing

I want to surround myself with so many smiling people, but I am behind locked doors busy hiding the flooding emotions

I am standing right here, waiting with wide open hands to embrace abundant happiness, love, care, affection, peace and joy the universe can flood us with