Its a usual boring Saturday afternoon
Hot sun heating up outside the window
Birds tweets breaking the silence
I would have munched my lunch and watched a movie by this time of
noon
Now, I lie here numb to all my surroundings
Eyes fixed at the ceiling, where droplets of sorrow find their way
by the sides of the eyes
Loudest of my cry is heard as a slightest whispers
Fingers are decorating the floors with polka dots of my tear drops
Stirring these feelings, tears my heart insanely apart
Beauty lies everywhere, I have no eyes to see
Even with so many people around, I feel so alone
So many days, so many nights past, I keep going
I wedge myself between my family, still sleep evades
I make a mountain effort to place one step ahead
I keep going, doing my part
I laugh, smile, have a small talk, making efforts to change
Still deep down the pain is so raw, hurting and breaking me every
now and then
It drags me into a bottomless hole, that gets darker and scarier
and lonelier every ticking second
Sometimes life gets so unbearably painful
Sometimes its so intense that my heart will explode
Sometimes its so intense that I want to get to another world
Sometimes its so intense that I lie down unable to move
I want to be happy but I keep crying
I want to go out and achieve, but I sit here with wide eyes
staring at nothing
I want to surround myself with so many smiling people, but I am
behind locked doors busy hiding the flooding emotions
I am standing right here, waiting with wide open hands to embrace
abundant happiness, love, care, affection, peace and joy the universe can flood
us with
